Am I stuck or….

I am feeling a little stuck today. I think I might be tired and am focused on too many things at once. It seems like it could be a good time to rest for a while and then return with fresh ideas and a clear plan to move forward. However, I want to do something—perhaps this is just the influence of capitalism or hustle culture telling me that. I believe I should create something, maybe engage in an artistic endeavor or go for a walk. It's beautifully snowing outside, although it’s cold, so I might skip the walk.

In any case, I need to get the Max Fuller content rolling, and I feel really nervous about it. It feels very vulnerable to share. I think that’s where I’m stuck right now. I'm struggling to create the content because I’m stepping into a vulnerable space with an audience watching me as I try to achieve my goals. I’m trying to look ahead to the next five steps to develop a solid plan.

Part of what I need is more clients to increase my income so that I can hire someone to help with bringing in more clients for social media management. I’m feeling anxious, very anxious, and scared. I’m trying to scale from $2k a month to $10k a month, and I’m unsure of what that looks like in practice. I want to take people along on this journey, but it’s daunting to have them watch me as I navigate it.

However, I am committed to being vulnerable, and I know I might look foolish while doing so. I will likely make mistakes, stumble over my words, and probably embarrass myself. One of my favorite quotes from Sophie Hunter is, "I will be cringe before I'm boring," and that's exactly what’s about to happen—lots of cringe. But I'm willing to endure this discomfort because it’s a necessary part of growth. So my next step is to post content on Max Fuller about what I am doing.

The emotions I am experiencing as I navigate this vulnerable space include fear, shame, and guilt. This isn't my first attempt at opening a business and making it successful, but previous efforts have not worked out the way I would have liked. I believe those past failures were due to following a blueprint that wasn’t right for me. However, with this new and entirely different blueprint, I feel hopeful and confident in its potential.

While the journey ahead is different and uncertain, I also feel excitement and anticipation. I have a deep sense of joy in my creative space, and I eagerly look forward to seeing where this new blueprint will take me. This truly is a very creative space for me.